I'm trying not to give up.
It's amazing to me how living corporate life will suck the soul straight out of you. It used to be "us versus them," where "they" were the corporate suits that governed everyone from afar. Now "they" are simply everyone else... people who learned to survive the tough times when the tech bubble burst by being cutthroat and ruthless, then never going back.
My computer just died... I think the proc overheated and finally went frizzle. I've been working on tutorials for Blender and CrystalSpace, focusing this time on creating a human mesh from reference images, vertex modeling, texture mapping, rigging and finally exporting. I have finished examples for all stages and just started writing the texture mapping chapter when the whole machine went dead. It POST's to BIOS, but after that no dice. So I'm shopping on newegg.com now. I'm cringing 'cause I can't afford any of this crap... so maybe I'll just live with a 2' brick on my floor.
So... right now, if this were a Shakespearean drama we'd be in the "rising action" section. Bear in mind, this is from my own self-centered, egotistical perspective. But who knows what happens.